1.2.16

10 Questions from Urbandub Songs that Will Make you Want to Hurl Beer Bottles at 3 AM




You are what you listen to - or so they say. That being the case, I guess I am a pop, rock and alternative kind of girl. I don’t look the part but that’s a different story.

So anyway, the genre for the day is mostly based on whatever feels right at the moment. Being the ultra spontaneous person that I am, this means I can switch from one genre to another without batting an eyelash. This baffles the people around me, too. ha! In any case, the songs I listen to have one thing in common: lyrics that tug at the heartstrings! And speaking of lyrics that hit the mark (be it about unrequited love, betrayal or a failing relationship), here’s my personal list of favorites from none other than one of the best OPM hugoit bands I know.



FRIENDLY REMINDER: You’ll appreciate this more when you’re NOT SOBER.

Is this the beginning of our last dance?
ENDLESS, A SILENT WHISPER

I first heard this song (on loudspeaker, mind you!) during a basketball game near our house. I was cleaning the house when I heard the lyrics. I swear, I fell in love with that one line. Aawww.



When did you find out you didn’t love me anymore?
INSIDE THE MIND OF A KILLER

Listening to the lyrics of this song will easily create fictional characters involving a habitual emotionally abusive man (the kind who makes the same mistakes over and over, hhmmm) and an emotionally exhausted woman. In this song, the guy was practically begging the fed up girl for another chance.


Didn’t I give you all that I had to, baby?
NO ORDINARY LOVE

This song could be interpreted in many ways. I think that’s part of its distinct appeal. Nevertheless, I love this song because it reminds me of… a lot of things. :)


Am I too late now? Will I find a way to get to you somehow?
A NEW TATTOO

I see this song as a serenade for that someone you really like, someone you would want to have a chance to know more, if only you had the guts to even talk to the person.


Can you explain to me what has become of us?
THE FIGHT IS OVER

This is the song you can and should listen to when you’re just about ready to raise the white flag. If you’re suffering from a failing relationship, this song is extremely hazardous for your emotional health. Haha! Kidding aside, this is actually part of my breakup songs playlist.


Didn’t I deserve your love?
EVIDENCE

Cheating, infidelity, and everything betrayal. This song is a perfect find for broken hearted people who have been cheated on. Itaas ang bandera ng mga sawi. Char lang hahaha!


We could’ve been more. Can we ever have these feelings again?
REVEAL THE REMEDY

This song sings to people who failed their partners. Imagine cheating on your partner or neglecting her needs. She will only take so much - and then no more. This is the point where you will want to patch things up with her (but she won’t let you. Ha!)


Why was I weak? Why did we let it go?
SAFETY IN NUMBERS

No matter what people say, a failing relationship hurts both parties. This song is a constant reminder of how it feels to lose the love of your life; of how it feels to to spend long hours of every friggin’ day without that person.


Why do we paint our lives with patterns of loneliness? Make me believe again
THE ARSONIST

This is another sad song about a love that didn’t quite make it. It sings to those of us who are lonely; who are partly blaming ourselves for the one that got away.


Coz it feels like the end of it all, Could this be the end of something beautiful?
THE END OF SOMETHING

You know that point in a relationship where you and your partner have somewhat become strangers? It’s when you realize that things just aren’t the same anymore. Please, don’t listen to this when you’re on the verge of a breakup. You might end up dateless on the 14th.




Ok ka pa? Ako hindi na. Tissue, please. And more beer!




21.1.13

Mama


Outside, it's freezing
I stepped into the night
Letting the dark encloak me in its arms

If I whisper to the wind
If I will it to carry a fervent wish that's in my heart
I know you would hear,
I know you would understand
You would sing that lullaby to me
And I would feel you again
As if your hand was never withdrawn
As if your beautiful face is still alit with life

My yearning for you is lulled by time
But I wish not to escape my sorrow

This sadness makes me remember you
And I never want to forget

11.11.12

Angel and Joel Forever

Find someone with whom you will want to dance with forever and don't ever, ever, ever let go.

Watch out for our official wedding pictures next week!

31.5.12

My Take on Unconditional Love

When you love, everything makes even more sense. Everything looks bright and beautiful. Problems don’t seem like problems at all. You are genuinely happy and fulfilled – and it shows. The silliest remarks can make you laugh; you end the day with a contented sigh, no matter how tired you are. That’s how it has been for me lately.

I’ve said this before and I’m saying this again because it still feels that way. When I am with Joel, I feel that I am jumping over a cliff with a stupid smile on my face. They can call it stupidity or even obsession, but I call it love – unconditional love. What I’m actually saying is that it all boils down to this: Once in your life, you would learn how to love unconditionally. In my case, I am blessed, grateful and very happy that I learned to love unconditionally at the age of 24.

22.5.12

Of Dreams and Wishes

You cheat and you get away with it. You've lied so many times that I have actually lost count. You say things you don't mean. You make promises you don't keep. You always find something to nag and complain about: that my walking pace is too slow, that I couldn't walk straight if there's a dog sniffing around, that I couldn't keep my things in order even if I try, that I lose my stuff all the time. There are so many things about you that exasperate me, but in spite of all that, I know in my heart that I wouldn't want to change a single hair on your head. You're the same person that I fell in love with and I don't want you to change. I don't want us to change.

We've been together for almost four years. There had been many trials and challenges. I smile when I think about them. The stupid stunts, the petty things that almost drove us apart. Looking back, though, I feel that we wouldn't be who we are now as a couple if it hadn't been for the crazy things we had been through. You've been there for me through thick and thin. You stuck around because my family needed someone to rely on. You've held my hand whenever I was down. You fought for me when you chose me over her. You chose not to pursue your dreams because I asked you not to leave. You waited outside that OR while I had that major operation. You took care of me whenever I'm sick. You held the plastic when I threw up (wink). You have always been there for me, being the brother that I never had, silently cheering me on, urging me to push my limits.

When I was a child, I thought I wanted a prince charming on a white horse. I was wrong. I don't care about horses at all. I don't care about being a princess, or a beautiful heroine, even. I'm a simple woman with a simple wish. I just want you to wait for me while I walk down the aisle of that nature-themed church as a close friend of mine plays the violin. Yes, that's all I want. I just want you to be with me forever.

I love you with everything I am and nothing can change that. Ever.

8.11.11

Our Isha



Dear baby,

There was no melodrama when I first saw you. I was too groggy; too exhausted to even check if your fingers were deformed or what. I didn’t even hold you in my arms until you were allowed to join your daddy and I in the recovery room (that was three days after you were born). I remember seeing you for the first time but it was too surreal for me at that point. I know I had about nine months to prepare myself to be a mom but being in the actual situation is a different story altogether.

I must admit that I was practically moving in the dark where caring for you as a newborn is concerned. I didn’t know how to bathe you. Aside from that, I was clueless about the proper way of cleaning your tongue. Your daddy and I did a lot of crazy stunts – a comedy of errors, really. Fortunately, we got around those quite well on our own. We did not break any of your limbs so I guess that’s a good sign. Seriously though, I can say that each day is a delight because we have you with us. You smile more often now. You stare a lot, too. You make cute kitten-like sounds when you’re afraid. You turn red when you cry. You sleep peacefully with your mouth open. You also pout a lot. You raise your legs when we change your nappies. You like to snuggle as you sleep. There are many other things that you do which make us smile in unexpected moments. You make us really happy. You are all worth it, sweetheart.

I’m still expecting a lot of bumps along the way but we’re confident that we can raise you well. You might not have been blessed with wealthy parents who can provide you a haven that is fit for the princess that you know you are, but you do have parents who love and care for you the best way they know how.

We love you, Isha.

20.3.11

The baby is going to be a mommy

It's confirmed – I'm pregnant. Joel and I are going to have a baby.

I'm really happy about having this cute little thing growing inside me. Joel's very pleased himself. For two years, we've been led to believe that having our own kid is next to impossible, especially considering my health complications. Imagine our surprise when both pregnancy tests (the first one was the OTC type, the other was conducted at the clinic) yielded positive results.

Gosh. This is it. I'm really going to be a mom. Never mind that this cute brat is making me nauseous every so often; or that her cravings for chocolate is driving me nuts (yeah, I believe it's going to be a girl). It just feels so wonderful to be pregnant.

From Hoyumpa to Regondola

We're planning to get married around the first week of May. Nothing fancy, of course. That's not really a priority right now. We just want our friends and our immediate families to celebrate with us on the day of our wedding.

Anyway, Joel already talked to my dad after telling his mom about my condition. We don't really have problems as far as our parents are concerned. His parents took the news well. As for my dad, he was net mad at all. He knew we were planning to tie the knot next year. I guess he was surprised that the church wedding we're planning is going to be a civil wedding instead and that the baby is due soon. But aside from that, I know he's happy for us. And I couldn't be happier at the way things have progressed.

So there. I'm going to be a mom and a wife. Thank you, Lord, I feel so blessed, so loved and so grateful.