Dear Joel

Was going through my things when I saw this note tucked in an old notebook. It's something I came up with last year. Ka-kornyhan lng hehe...

Several things made me happy today and it made me think of you. You've been the source of my happiness for the last few months. You've been my personal fountain of joy. Can't believe this is how things between us would end; that you'd simply walk away...

Of journeys and destinations

It's been a while since I last posted an entry for this blog. I guess there's simply nothing much to write about. Or maybe I don't have that much time to put my thoughts into writing.

Well, for starters, things between Joel and I are pretty much stable. At this point, I daresay that we're at a point in our relationship where we are most concerned about the future. Our future. Joel and I are making long-term plans already. He's working on a regular morning shift and has a freelance designing racket to boot. Meanwhile, I'm also working hard; one regular job and one freelance writing stint.

We're determined to make things right. We're trying to map out a prosperous future together. We have big dreams and big dreams mean hard work. It's really great to do this together: growing together and fulfilling our own aspirations without a tinge of worry about leaving the other person at the losing end. Yes, we're both making our way up and we're proud and happy about the turn-out of our own careers. Joel is currently training to be the team leader for a particular sections (translations section, i think) in his team. He's saving up for some sort of an investment as well. I think it's important for him to reach his potentials, more than anything else. He should be happy and proud and confident and fulfilled. I, too, should tread the same journey.

I'm really inspired and motivated with this growing up process. Right now, I feel like I have a jolt of optimism for the future. it's as if I can do anything I put my mind to. Joel has that effect on me now. I'm glad he's being supportive about my plans to study again. I think it's really nice to have a partner whom you can really depend on; a partner whom you can proudly bring home to meet your family; a partner whom you can share your visions with. I think I've found my home and I don't want to take another route; I don't intend to look for another haven. This is it. This is where God wants me to be, beside a man who would treat me as his equal and who would allow me to grow in my own terms.

I'm glad I decided to stick to this relationship despite the odds. I'm glad I can now look deep into the beautiful, deep-set eyes of my guy and say he was (and is) all worth it.

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY ANGELS AND JOELS!!!

We fit together like two pieces of one puzzle; without rough edges, without uneven ridges.

My brother, my confidant, and my partner... thank you for the gift of your love.

Happy Anniversary!

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I couldn't sleep at all last night...I was thinking about you...Your smile and your eyes...Your smile that speak volumes;your eyes that portray great depth

I miss you.

There's something wonderful about your presence...Something sweet and poignant and tender...Thinking of you sends a warm tingle to my senses... The sensation is odd but strangely comforting...

Pre-Anniv Happy-Happy

We're barely a month away from our anniversary. Joel and I are planning on a Baguio Trip. We're ditching the idea of celebrating with friends. Well, actually, we're still planning to include them, our beloved drinking buddies hahaha... Pero shempre ndi na cla kasama sa Baguio db hehe =p

Wala lang.. I'm just uber excited about this whole anniv thingy. It's not that it's my first. I'm just really happy and enthused about Joel and I.

HHmmmmm....

When Angel Met Joel

June 2008
…It was a fateful day in June, my first month or so at Iweb. I remember Atchie practically dragging me to the poolside area where the rest of the group was hanging out. It was a despedida party of some sort; there were food and yosi and alcohol – the works. They invited us to take a swig of alcoholic beverage. Isang shot lang daw sabi ni August. I was sleep-deprived and hungry, but I went ahead and downed a cup of… (I’m not sure if the drink was empi or grandma). I thought that was the end of that. I was in no mood for chitchat, heck, I was hungry and sleepy and they were a little too “loud”.

After the second cup of the alcoholic drink (and water as chaser, a practice I got from Lyka), I pulled Atchie to one side and begged her to go with me to the CR. I was practically barfing – I don’t want to do that in public. Once inside, I stuck my fingers in; then I was okay. We went back to tell them that we’re going, but for some reason, we were “forced” to stay. Forced, without much struggle, I guess. By then, I was already starting to enjoy myself. I guess Atchie was pretty much enjoying herself as well. We were talking and joking around with them, when one guy started to catch my attention. The guy’s name is Joel.

JOEL REGONDOLA a.k.a. SB
Joel is a rather short, thin and muscular type of guy. He has smooth and moreno skin. He has long lashes which made his beautiful, large eyes look very expressive. He wore his slightly-longish hair unadorned. And… he has dimples. He has a gorgeous smile and a heart-stopping gaze, an irresistible combination, really. A combination that is exclusively his. Heck, even meeting Chiz Escudero in person was no comparison.

Okay, so this Joel guy had a “magnetic pull” effect on me. I found myself peeping under my lashes, to see if I also had that effect on him. I caught him looking, (staring, really) more than once. I was about to let it go but then he looked at me again and said, “ang cute ng smile mo.”

I pretended not to hear but from that point on, I made it a point to smile at every single joke shared among the group. That was the idea: they laugh and I smile. Pretty stupid, huh? I realize that now, but back then, this pa-cute maneuver came naturally. The smile was supposed to keep the dimples on my cheeks on a semi-permanent basis. My cheeks were getting sore, really. Fortunately, the group broke up, and most of them went swimming. I remember sitting with Joel after he went for a swim, but I can’t remember what the conversation was all about. I went dizzy and I passed out.


I threw up like hell, blah-blah… I’ll keep the gory details to myself.

Anyway... that was how things started... =)

Happy-Happy!!!

I'm setting aside my paranoia to pave way for something more positive: Our monthsary. Joel and Angel's 9th monthsary. Weee!!! =)

Okay, for starters, Joel and I had dinner last Saturday. Then, he spent the night at my house. (patay ako pag uwi ni daddy from Gensan hahaha). Then we ate lunch the next day (Sunday) and set off to run different errands.

Actually, today is the big day. Perhaps, this day is indeed a big day, considering the frequency of our petty fights since I started working again. Oh well, I guess there really are inevitable issues between us. But in spite of these, I think we're well on our way towards a more fruitful (nyay fruitful hahaha) relationship. I just wish he'd be less "friendly" when socializing with other girls. (Or maybe I should try to lock up the green-eyed monster that threatens to comes out when Joel smiles at another girl hahaha).

9 months and counting... =)