My Take on Unconditional Love

When you love, everything makes even more sense. Everything looks bright and beautiful. Problems don’t seem like problems at all. You are genuinely happy and fulfilled – and it shows. The silliest remarks can make you laugh; you end the day with a contented sigh, no matter how tired you are. That’s how it has been for me lately.

I’ve said this before and I’m saying this again because it still feels that way. When I am with Joel, I feel that I am jumping over a cliff with a stupid smile on my face. They can call it stupidity or even obsession, but I call it love – unconditional love. What I’m actually saying is that it all boils down to this: Once in your life, you would learn how to love unconditionally. In my case, I am blessed, grateful and very happy that I learned to love unconditionally at the age of 24.

Of Dreams and Wishes

You cheat and you get away with it. You've lied so many times that I have actually lost count. You say things you don't mean. You make promises you don't keep. You always find something to nag and complain about: that my walking pace is too slow, that I couldn't walk straight if there's a dog sniffing around, that I couldn't keep my things in order even if I try, that I lose my stuff all the time. There are so many things about you that exasperate me, but in spite of all that, I know in my heart that I wouldn't want to change a single hair on your head. You're the same person that I fell in love with and I don't want you to change. I don't want us to change.

We've been together for almost four years. There had been many trials and challenges. I smile when I think about them. The stupid stunts, the petty things that almost drove us apart. Looking back, though, I feel that we wouldn't be who we are now as a couple if it hadn't been for the crazy things we had been through. You've been there for me through thick and thin. You stuck around because my family needed someone to rely on. You've held my hand whenever I was down. You fought for me when you chose me over her. You chose not to pursue your dreams because I asked you not to leave. You waited outside that OR while I had that major operation. You took care of me whenever I'm sick. You held the plastic when I threw up (wink). You have always been there for me, being the brother that I never had, silently cheering me on, urging me to push my limits.

When I was a child, I thought I wanted a prince charming on a white horse. I was wrong. I don't care about horses at all. I don't care about being a princess, or a beautiful heroine, even. I'm a simple woman with a simple wish. I just want you to wait for me while I walk down the aisle of that nature-themed church as a close friend of mine plays the violin. Yes, that's all I want. I just want you to be with me forever.

I love you with everything I am and nothing can change that. Ever.