Torn..

I think I'm too eager to do everything at once. I don't know where to start.

I want to be with Joel. All the time. But I also want to prioritize my own media career.

I want to prioritize my own media career, but I also want to join the academe.

I want to join the academe, but if I do, I will not earn enough to pursue my Masteral Degree.

I want to earn my Masteral Degree, but Daddy says he will only pay for my education (again) if I study in Mindanao.

I want to go to Mindanao because becoming a war correspondent is one of my greatest dreams. But if I go to Mindanao and work as a journalist there, my Dad will get mad and he won't pay for my education anymore. I think I might break his heart if I get killed in the middle of the insurgency. Plus, I don't want to stay away from SB.

I think I'd rather stay at IWeb. Only problem is, I'm not enjoying my job. Plus, I don't have a client. I can look for another job, but if I find another employment, what will happen to SB and I?...

I'm thinking of SB, money, and a decent career. I need a job that can fit all of these....

I Miss You

I await the rising of the sun as this would signal another day... and another breakfast date with you. But even as the sun shines brightly unto us, I find myself bothered by the fact that our time together would soon pass. I am thus torn between making the most of our one-hour breakfast date and anticipating the torment of longing for you as I know I would greatly feel your absence in the hours that lie ahead.

Like now, perhaps?

I miss you...

Now, I wish nighttime would come, just so I could sleep peacefully in a haven where only thoughts of you would pervade my mind.

I miss you... I miss you... I miss you...
Did I say that already??

Mornings with SB

Joel (a.k.a. sexyboy/SB) and I are still together. I'm falling even more in love with him each day.

SB and I had breakfast at Jollibee this morning. I had the urge to kiss him while we're eating our breakfast. Nothing horny, really, just an overwhelming need to express my love. Overwhelming... LOL!

Hhaayysshh... Eating with SB is a really, really nice thing. I was intent on gobbling up my tune pie when a thought from nowhere struck me: I WANT TO DO THIS FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.

I want to eat breakfast with SB for the rest of my life. I want to wake up in the morning with this wonderful, wonderful, wonderful person by my side. I want him to be the last person I'll see at night. I'm seeing a bright future ahead; a bright future with this crazy guy who makes my heart beat a thousand times over. I doubt if I can make every turn a right one, but somehow, I also know that no matter what kind of journey lies ahead, I will (and I can( take the challenge head-on, as long as I have SB with me. Always.

If this is not a declaration of love, then I don't know what this is...

My Guy

I met this guy who said he didn't like drunkard chicks, but he fell in love with me, anyway.

He doesn't have much patience with naggers, but for me he made an exception.

He doesn't have his own kid yet, so he's pampering me as if I'm his own baby.

He says I'm a spoiled brat, but he has pretty much accepted that fact already.

He thinks I'm a paranoid freak most of the time, but he just keeps his mouth shut, anyway.

He finds my craziness annoying, but he only says so when I'm going overboard.

I think I'm a lucky girl to have found such a wonderful person to fall in love with.

Too bad we aren't seeing each other as much as we used to..
Too bas we aren't seeing each other as much as we want to..

Darn...
I miss my guy...

Angelina Joel. LOL...

Perhaps this is what love means...

LoveNotes... Or something to That Effect

Are you real?
Sometimes I think you aren't.
Sometimes I wonder if you'd go away if I close my eyes,
Or if you'd be blown away by a single gust of the wind.

I don't know.

Maybe this is crazy.
Maybe we are all crazy.
But then again, maybe it's just you and I.

I love you so much...